Talking about rape is hard. It’s something so private and painful that people don’t always have the words. Rapper Angel Haze, 22, chose to remake Eminem’s hit song “Cleaning Out My Closet” to help illuminate the issues victims face.
“With ‘Cleaning Out My Closet’ I did actually have high hopes for that song in regards to helping people understand the process and the trauma that rape victims go through,” she said.
Haze’s lyrics feel like a confession. They’re explicit. They are uncomfortable. She vividly recounts some of the sexual abuse she experienced, as well as the resulting anger and suicidal thoughts.
Here are some of the lyrics: Warning – may cause distress.
When I was seven envision me at the bottom of stairs
And I solemnly swear that this is the truth, no fallacy here
See I was young, man, I was just a toddler, a kid
And he wasn’t the first to successfully try but he did
He took me to the basement and after the lights had been cut
He whipped it out and sod**zed and forced his c**k through my gut
See it was weird because I felt like I was losing my mind
And then it happened like it happened millions of times
[We warned you they were explicit]
“In America, in particular, we are so desensitized when it comes to sexual abuse,” she said. “You have people who rally against rape and then you have people who say that’s not ‘real’ rape.”
Haze hopes this song, in particular, will give a voice to sexual abuse victims.
“For me, to put that out there and to describe what I went through, and make it so blatant that people feel disgusted when they listen to the song—it’s what you’re supposed to feel, ” she said. “It’s what I want you to feel, it’s how I want you to think of it. I want people who have gone through it to feel sympathetic towards their process.”